Am I pessimistic or optimistic

That's a really good question because I thinks that Im a mix of both, theres sometimes im optimistic and sometimes im not for example, in school and stuff Im not im really nota school type of kid, but in sports and clubs and stuff I am.. so I gotta takes one wif da others. I also thinks i cants jus acide because sumatimes theres reasons to think stuff through logically and stuff, other times its good to has goals like when i grows ups i wanna be a syko dokta  and dats optimistic , acuz you gotta has gutz to dat .. Im not gonna acide wether or nots im one or the other I like mixin it up and bein different so ima walk the fence on this and jus be me